December 2009
68 posts
family lunches make me want to shank myself.
dang, what is my problem today. :(
why is it that all the words possible to refer to a female as being a horrible person are sexual?
skank. whore. slut. hoe. etc…. okay, I guess bitch works…but bitch seems a little too strong. I just think I need to find a happy medium between bitch and skank that doesn’t have sexual connotations and that will be the perfect word to describe her. that way…every time i...
fishkeeper:
Holy cow. I forgot to tell you.
THERES A PANERA BREAD CO IN GILROY!!!!! WTF!
that was like my favorite place to eat in Missouri.
It started in St. Louis. In St. Louis it’s still St. Louis Bread Company. It’s soooooo good.
you’re a dork. There is one of those just down the street from my house…is it really any good?? I guess I’ll have to try it some time then. ...
i slept about 15 hours last night. so nice. ahhh… I sure do love cough syrup…yesssirrreee.
after this i have 2 days off…i plan on isolating myself from the rest of the world. sounds good to me.
falling… falling…
falling… falling…
falling… falling…
falling… falling…
falling… falling…
falling… falling…
falling… falling… and yeah, i’m doing nothing about it.
i just hope i don’t let it go too far…nothing too dangerous.
I feel cold and weak and it doesn’t even seem like today is Christmas. I should be better than this…my heart shouldn’t be so incredibly weak. but it is…and I don’t know what to do about it. I’m just going to sit here and eat this cucumber cause chocolate is unhealthy.
it just doesn’t feel like christmas today.
my heart aches.
yay. :)
My friend was admitted to the hospital this morning finally!! yaaaayyyy her baby is coming today!! eep! She’s already at 4.5cm. woot! I can’t wait for that text that says that John is finally born!! yesss…
the plan was to go to bed early tonight. yeah. it’s currently 11:18 freaking “friends”
i haven’t gone to a single christmas party this year…. maybe that’s why it just doesn’t feel like christmas to me…. oh God, heal my fractured emotions.
there is only one thing in life that i can’t handle…. this is it. i’m being selfish, I know. I just can’t handle this…i love her to death but i’ve told her a million times why she shouldn’t kill herself but she doesn’t listen. I can’t handle her trying to tell me goodbye again. It’s selfish I know but I’m going to have...
nothing is better than a day when you come in to find your least favorite shift got her hours covered and you don’t have to work w/her.
i’m so tired. oh geeez. :/ working 7:30-3:45…. such a long shift for starting that early in the morning…i really hope i’m not too moody….ergghhh….
i am a bitter, bitter little girl. I don’t know what to do about it.
my heart is aching tonight for a million heavy reasons. I should just sleep it off….but i’d rather wallow in my own self pity.
my eyes are all goopey and tired but i’m so full of thoughts in my head…only i can’t talk about them. i feel like nothing about me is making sense. i want to run in circles and save a puppy and fix a fence then eat some candy and buy one shoe. I don’t know. I just want to get out of here.
i think i’ve finally reached the point where I can no longer hope to attract a good christian guy… 5 tattoos will do that to a girl I guess. Now I just have to set my hopes on a somewhat sketchy christian guy. whatever.
I cuss too much.
i don’t understand how my best friends end up dating the most horrible people. I mean…I really do want to like them…cause they’re my good friends bf/gf….but they’re just horrendous people. I mean, seriously? I want to be happy for them…but how can i be happy when they’re dating such creeps. sigh. i am happy for my friend though…because...
i’ve been a weird little girl lately. sigh.
my heart aches today…and because of that i am being mean to everyone. i just want to cry in the corner alone. :(
today i feel like my heart matters. it’s a nice feeling.
sometimes I feel the urge to start commenting on people’s status’ to tell them to stop being so personal on facebook. i know, I’m totally guilty of it too…. but lately i’ve been feeling more and more that people keep some things to themselves. it’s just … i know they aren’t going to get the affirmation they need from status updates….personal...
friendships are weird. i’m the kind of person that always assumes the worst…. lame sauce.
i still haven’t gotten brave enough to tell my parents or sister that I got a new tattoo.
I just made lemon bars…
and they are AMAZING. yums. good day.
I’m going to talk to the tattoo artist today to get a quote on my ink. secretly, I kind of hope that he’ll be available to do the outline today and then I can come back later for some awesome shading… because i have the money now to do the outline, just not the shading yet… it probably won’t happen but…a girl can dream, right?
oh mannnn...
my feet hurt so bad. 8 hours on my feet at work yesterday then walking around downtown to check out art galleries then dancing and hoping and skipping in the rain…and then today with my new shoes with heels all day… my poor feet ache.
today before church I went out and bought tights and cute shoes with heels to wear. then i wore my dress to church with these tights and shoes… pretty much I’ve felt good about myself all day. tehehehe….
I’ve officially moved on from my weird noodle obsession… I’m now onto pastries and baked goods. :) I just baked up some delightful cinnamon coffee cake. I can smell it from here….oooooh…. It’s sitting on the stove and cooling. mmmmm…. I also went out and got decaf coffee so I can drink some delish coffee and enjoy my coffee cake. :)
great.
so now it looks like…because my new manager is a bitch and a terrible person…i’m going to be working 7 days a week at 2 different job AND taking 4 online classes. FML. There’s no way I can make it through this without ending up in the psych hospital again…ugh. I’m going to lose my mind…this isn’t fair. I hate Starbucks. I wish I could never work...
